Je le veux...

How long does it usually take to get over someone? Like seriously. I swear to gawd I'm over him and then I hear a song that reminds me of him and BAM!, I miss him all over again.

Some song lyrics that describe me right now:

Do you want me, like I want you? - Jewel, Standing Still

Everytime I've figured out, or found a way to live without, you come around and everything's all wrong... - Graham Colton, You Find A Way

Only dreaming that you're missing me... - Basshunter, Now You're Gone

It's always times like these when I think of you and I wonder if you ever think of me. - Vanessa Carlton, A Thousand Miles

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again... - Secondhand Serenade, Fall For You

I wanna take you back, back to where we started, before the lights had changed... - Graham Colton, Take You Back

But you, you're always on my mind, it's like this all the time... - Jewel, Again and Again

One more night, I wanna be with you... - Cascada, One More Night

With you, I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand... - Nickelback, Far Away

I'm here without you, baby, but you're still on my lonely mind. - 3 Doors Down, Here Without You

I can't hold onto you, so I guess I'll be lonely too. - Secondhand Serenade, Suppose

I'd do anything, just to hold you in my arms, try to make you laugh, somehow I can't put you in the past. - Simple Plan, I'd Do Anything

I'll do whatever it takes to turn this around. - Lifehouse, Whatever It Takes

There's a lot I will never do, some fantastic I know it's true, but not as much as my want to be with you. - Barenaked Ladies, Some Fantastic

I never thought that I had any more to give, you're pushing me so far, here I am without you. - Gavin Rossdale, Love Remains The Same

Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have. - Teddy Geiger, For You I Will

Tell me why you're so hard to forget, don't remind me I'm not over it. - David Archuleta, A Little Too Not Over You

Imagine me, trying too hard to put you from my mind. - Christine Daae/Emmy Rossum, Think Of Me

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I also feel really weird admitting this, but I cut his name in my wrist. Which is just a little screwy. JUST A LITTLE. Great, the last thing I need is feeling super bad for A) cutting, B) liking my ex, and C) liking my ex to a point that I start cutting. Jeez. I am SO MESSED UP.

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I don't want to like him. He needs to get the fuck out of my head, and stay out for good.

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So yeah, that just about sums me up right now.
Cheers,
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