L'amour est difficile....

...Or, "love is difficult," if you don't speak French.

Which it is.

This requires quite a bit of backtracking for those of you who don't know my story well. So in June, I started dating Mitch, who I had liked for ages but didn't mention it since he was dating my friend.
It wasn't a typical summer romance, since both of us went to camps and vacations and whatnot, and whenever I returned from a vacation or camp he would have to leave for one. We saw each other about four times over the summer.

Well... I broke up with him. I don't even remember why I did it. It just seemed like the right thing to do at the time, I guess.

As cliché tends to define my life at times, I started liking him again last night at a mutual friend's birthday party. I hadn't talked to him that much since we broke up, (I mean, we talked and joked around as friends and stuff, but it was always just a little bit...off) but it was actually not awkward last night.

I really, really like him... but I also dumped him. I have no clue how I'm going to go about getting him back, don't even know if it's possible...anyone have suggestions? Without telling me that it's kind of my fault that I'm in this mess?

Love sucks....

I think I might ask him to St. Selgae's, which is like our school's Sadie's/girl's choice dance. You need a date to get in anyway, so if I wanna go I might as well.... >w<

I really wanna tell him this... but I have no idea if or how much I hurt him with the breakup. He didn't really let on much... I just wish that I could take back the breakup... or at least read his mind to see if he still wouldn't mind giving me a chance...

Cheers, (though I'm not very cheery at the moment)
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