Je ne dois pas.

Guhhh. So I just spent the week in Chicago, cleaning houses in Cabrini Green (one of the slums of the city). It's hard work, I tell you! But the worst part is dealing with the people in my church group.

Among other shit that they pull, they were pestering me the whole week about how far I've gone with Alex. For everyone's information, we have made out. I don't want to go any farther than that, and I know he doesn't either, because we've talked about it. Because we're a weird-ass couple. XD

As a joke, one of them twisted my words and was like "Laura, you gave him head?" and spent the rest of the week implying that. I told her to cut the shit, because it was getting obnoxious and people were starting to think it was true. She responded with a lecture that went something like this:

"He may tell you that he doesn't want you to give him head, but he's just trying to get you to trust him so you'll do it anyway. You know you're going to have to do it eventually. He's making you happy! You have to make him happy in return."

Two words, folks. BULL SHIT. I do not have to do anything! I do not have to show my affection through sexual favors! And, I know him well enough to fully say that Alex is telling the truth when he told me he doesn't want to go farther than making out. And even if he does, he's polite enough not to say it. Plus, if he really was interested in me, he would accept the fact that I don't want to do that! Good thing for me, he does.

Why do people say shit like this? Why is there this peer pressure to "repay" someone for being your significant other? It's not like "yay, you're my boyfriend, so now you get blowjobs because you're taking time out of your life to spend it with me." And if it is, it shouldn't be. Argh.

I hate people making jokes about my lack of a sex life, and the fact that I want to keep it that way.

Cheers,
X